You never really know..

Another year, another time, more changes. Like all my family members say, 'When it rains. it pours'... Eviction. Depression. Rejection. All of this is a matter of months, WEEKS even. Birds stay cluckin' in my ear, i just gotta swat like there's no tomorrow.. Proud of myself for being so strong though. New beginnings, I'm loving school! Sad, because i know that it will all be over, and i'll either never see some people again, or it will be sooo long. I guess that's why we make plans, huh? (i see that smile!!) I'm trying to keep my head up, and thankfully, i have people behind me, who actually have my back. Working hard, don't know who knows it, but i do. I have to make the most of this time, cause as these past years have shown me, you just never really know.

Yezzzzz

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Zu7S5fjKeE omg..funny as hell..

Another addiction?????

PRETTY LITTLE LIARS!!! THAZ MY JOINT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tryna make a name for myself...

Musically. Mentally. Fashion wise. Socially. I'm trying to live it up the best i can, cause i've experienced firsthand how quickly life can change...or be taken away. I want to be big, not neccessarily famous, just someone who can get out of MV..BE something, do what i love, and make MAD duckets..you already shnoozit!! Can i make my dreams come true? Wacth me...

My Newest Addiction

KEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$HHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!

Setting Off

Don't let me hold you back

From fighting for your goals

Even if it hurts me

Highs always come after lows

I'll help you lace up

and support your every move

Don't want to be your weight

But i can't help you if you lose

I'll be standing at a distance

Close to see, but not to touch

Even though my being is fading

I'll always love you very much

So go on and clip your wings

Set off and fly

I was prepared for the takeoff

But certainly, not for the goodbyes....

Can you handle the Vita?

Are YOU Vita-licious?

Yes! I have met like.. the coolest person ever. Her name is Vita Chambers (her song, 'like boom' is in the summer nickelodeon commercial) and she's from Barbados (Barbados^!!) She is super smart, super pretty, and like..JUST like me. Hopefully she's my new bestie...I SOO wanna make a song with her.. ('like boom' remix?) Haha, anyways, im trying to get my career started, so im having my SECOND blogsie called Check Me Out X3...videos, songs, poems, all that...just for my soon-to-be music career. Think i'll make it? I GOTTA MAKE IT!! (yeah, i stole trey's song) So tell me this.. Are YOU Vita-licious?

(Someone's) Smiley...

So today is that dreaded day...

Happy father's day daddy... it's been 6 (6?) years since i've actually said that to his face. I don't have a grave that i can go to. I have a stepdad. And he's the baddest, yes. But he's not MINE... bottom line.. happy daddy's day to my daddy and to grampa charlie.. and the other dead beat grandpa i have...

Shake Off The Leeches, And Keep On Swimming *BEST OF MY WRITING WORK*

Shake off the leeches and keep on swimming

'Cause one day, this race is what i'll be winning

Tired of yelling and screaming and weeping

I may look fine, but lies are always misleading

Take 4 steps forward, get knocked 6 steps back

I might look weak, but why be that?

You may have gotten to me today

Though, one day you'll hear what i have to say

My eyes water, my patience is thinning

Just gotta shake off the leeches and keep on swimming

Unappreciated..here, there, everywhere

So um... life is rough. Family is kinda crap.. talking some deep stuff with my grandma, of all people. My aunts, as usual, are on top and doing their thing. (they are so on my list of idols) My mother just can't get her priorities straight, so i just can't give anymore chances. Cancer is, again, rearing it's ugly head in my direction-and it's some scary stuff. My 'dad' is going through stuff, things he doesn't deserve to be going through. My brother is a brat, my sister, a cupcake (teehee). Doing what i do and caring too much. Try to help people if i see fit, and i get kicked in the a**. Should i give up? Just leave? Feel upset? Maybe. But not now. I'm still gonna be there, bothering the hell out of you, because it's me and how i am. I'm not changing on anybody's wim. Point blank period. I have too much to give to just keep it inside.So put that in your pipe and smoke it!! Things are a little better for right now. Not keeping my hopes up. Doing my writing thing, a few poems and songs here and there, and get this- i wrote down a freestyle i was thinking of!! It's a few pages long.. Yup! I'm following my Daddy's steps, even my stepdaddy's steps too if you think about it. I think i already made it clear i wanna be big. Unappreciation or not, I'm still keeping that dream. (dunno if my freestyle is any good- i'm not the rapping type! It was just pure experimentation! ;-P)No matter what, i love all you guys, and nothing's gonna change me, so stop trying!!!!

Love, Peace, Big Mac Grease
(Someone's) Smiley

There Goes My baby...teehee

So the bestest is doin what the bestest does... Makin me fall head over heels all the time, as usual. Makin me happy, one word at a time. Helpin me through all my b.s. Wish there was less of it though. I already got drama at my house, then at school.. i just need an escape. And my bestest is one of them. We could talk for hours and hours about nothing and talk about each other all day (i think we have already on many occasions) We plan for the future, hopin it will be here soon. I just gotta thank my bestest for all that has been done for me. I could talk about a lot of stuff, but imma keep it nice short and sweet...

THANK YOU BESTEST FOR MAKIN LIFE WORTH WHILE!!!!

Love,

(Someone's) Smiley

'Does She Do It (Does He Do It Rmx) -.......

(Chorus?)

Does she do it (5x)

Does she do it, do it

Like i do it (5x)

Like i do it, do it, do it

(V1)

When we started hangin out

I was scared to let you in

Didnt wanna hurt again

But my heart always wins

Found out i'm not the only one

Didn't really care

I had you right next to me

I was floatin on air

(Chorus)

I cut off what we had

Still no matter what i know

I'll always be that number one

With the sickest flow

Even though she's here (i'm there)

I know that i am better

That upgrade, the next step up- I'm that go getta

(Chorus)

(Hook)

I'm still (on your mind)

Just one (of a kind)

U still got love (i still got mine)

Cannot forget (and i won't lie)

And even though we're done

Still got questions, here's one

(Chorus)

Does she smile just for you?

Does she say that your her boo?

Do you think about me too?

Stop actin' brand new

Does she do it?

Found My Swag.....I'm that little freak, dat little mutt Smiley

I'm mixed wit everything, as you know. And I found (one of?) my swagzzz!! My music, my hunny bunch!! Haha, I'm tryna focus on those two things the most besides my grades. Can't be famous witout those! Imma enjoy life- I can't let y'all hold me back from my dreams and all dat. When i'm famous you guys are gonna wish you treated Smiley (and D.E.W) better..watch for us...we're the next Drake and Nicki (D.E.W.) and Ryan Leslie (ME THE SMILEY)

Who want our autograph??

RLesin' It!!!

Makin my melodies, then my beat, then my lyrics. Just doin what i do. And yeah you can play the drums : P!! I have a little song i'm workin on now, it's called 'Lonely'..or i might switch it up and turn it into something else. I don't know who 'Lonely' is written for...could be for the person who puts me down the most..who tries to tell me how to live my life and alladat crap...who just doesn't deserve to see my smile...but anyways, i was givin T'Nia (yes, T'Nia, the one who got issues at school) some love advice earlier today. Cause i'm Dr. Love, you already shnozit. (yeah, i saw that smile!) It was a deep convo. I don't like having to blow people that are close to me off...it's just not my thing. Disappointment isn't my criteria, you know? I really can't focus on my family issues, the negative. I have to make the most of the bestest and our togethertime! (again, you already shnozit!) Gotta focus on my music, my life, my bestest....like i said in one of my first songs, 'you gotta take it slow, you never really know, gotta look both ways before you go'...watch out for me n my bestie/bestest! We bouta make a crazy song, she gonna b rappin, imma be singin..yezzzz!!! We gonna be so famous!!! Smiley outie like a belly button!!

(Someone's) Smiley,

**Lovin love, hatin you!!!**

*

'Childish' By:.....

'Stormed by like a hurricane

Ya style just drives me insane

Words just can't explain

Why i i i feel this way

Tried to get back on my feet

But needed u to help me be

Alive but you just made me weak

Made it hard to speak

Words just came into my mind

So let me get em out

I'm one of a kind

Tell you what i'm about

I'm just (just) speechless

Clueless

Not the best (at)

Expressin this

I was aimless

But now yer on top of my list

So can u grant my wish?

Hope that don't seem childish'.....

To Be Continued.....

On the cloud after 8....teehee

So um, I'm feelin really lovey dovey lately. Don't really know why..visited my old school today. SO many memories. Of KERS my besties were no where to b found (frown). Something about weather that's not winter makes me all floaty and fancy free. Not saying i don't like the feeling. I love being carefree and happy. Especially chillin wit my bestest. Another reason why i feel like this. Like I'm on air. It's the kind of high you don't need to smoke for. I hope this feeling is gonna last for a while...what can i say..i guess I'm love struck...

J.O.T.M~ Nothin' On You~ B.o.B feat. Bruno Mars

(Someone's) Smiley.....

: D

Dedicated to you..courtesy of RLes..

* Not a thing, mama, anything

You need from me baby please take this ring

It's like braille- the way i feel. It's something that i can't conceal

Cause girl you're my life personify

myself i can only try

to measure yer shine on an earthly scale

everything else is pale (compared to you)

Baby you're my cure

so sincere and pure

I'll stay by you're side

Till the day i die

**We started out as friends now we friends with benefits

When the freakin begins, that's the end of the innocence

Speakin of innocence I can remember when i never used to call you

I was a gentlemen I, was on my cash grind

I had to make moves, and when i got mine

I came to get you

***I don't have to say your beautiful

you've got plenty other guys to say those words for you

and i don't have to say you run the show

All it takes is a word and i lose all control for ya

I know you're not my girlfriend, but i swear that i love you...

I don't have to say you stole my heart

Cause anything i have i gladly give to you

and i knew right from the very start

that the only place i belong is next to you...

i know you're not my girlfriend but

i swear that i love you, baby i do...

Even through all the ups and downs

you can't stop, the way i feel now

even through the storm, joy and pain

i won't change still feel the same

anytime you call, i don't care

whatever the reason, I'll be there

Constintley on my mind

And thats why I'm hopin you will be my..valentine

And so many more songs, words to say, to sing....for now i think i loves you lots works....

*Just Right

**You're Fly

***VALENTINE VALENTINE VALENTINE!!!

Got Dynamite? Daz all good, but I got love....

You got caught in YER game, so now u gotta b mad at the world? All my life there's been someone trying to break me...my moms is numbr one right now. I'm failing and my life is falling apart. I open up my heart, my brain, my whole being to u, and you do me like that? I tell u I almost died because of you, hurt myself because of u , let u do whatever to me and mess up my life...and u laugh in my face? Mock me? Make fun of me? I backed u up when your loving husband was bout ready to beat u down, defended u when no one was on your side, let u 'live your life' wit sumone who was only messin it up...sat there and let u take out your anger on me. Its all good cause pops always told me keep my head up because the negative people always get theirs. U can't shake me...I got peeps holding me down, things you'll never have, feelings you'll never feel. I have a person that always loved me and always will. That accepts me and my drama, whom will always have my heart. A person so strong so brave. Someone I admire. A beautiful person who people wish they could be. That person is a part of me, and I am a part of that person. That person is my everything. Nothing changes that. Daddy wouldn't let u bring him down. And neither will I.

A VERY spooky discovery....tomorrow i am turning 13...

RLes Obsession

Dunno why, but i am SOOO smitten by his music...love his lyrics- and the fact HE MAKES ALL HIS SONGS FROM SCRATCH!!! Luv ya Leslie...keep doin what you do..

All I Got For Christmas Was...

1. Casio keyboard

2. Nike Dunks

3. Sketchbook

4. PSP Go

5. Clothes

6. Bear Paws

7. Boggle Jr

8. New bag

9. Jewelry and junk

10. Hello Kitty thingy

11. Baby Nani

12. Cool! A Book Light!!!

13. Stuffs to decorate my room and junk

14. Money

15. Metallic High tops

(Wut i miss?)

2010 is totally gonna kick bass!

2009 was full of misery business.....grief...sadness....frowning smileys..but i'm determined to have a saucesome 2010...Happy New Years from the craziest, coolest, saucesomest Smiley you'll ever meet...

S.O.T.M~ 'Gibberish' by : RLes & 'Press Pause' By: Danity Kane

Nalani Kela Blackwell...you are now my life

My beautiful little sister was born yestaurday...can't wait to see her again! 9 lbs, 21 in. long...so beautiful...luvs us...shes on my list of numba ones, along wit OTHER people...ready for love, life....the new year...2009 sucked eggs...can't wait to start new..and mother dearest can't stop me frum loving...nuff said...like i said...can't wait for love...TO love.

Love, Peace, Big Mac Grease

(Someone's) Smiley

Talia the Slime!!!

Happy birthday, to the dirtiest, slimiest, ugliest, heiffer on da block. Thank you for all the hateration, and making me so famous!! Yer SUCH a great friend...hope you and ya wifey Andina have a great marriage!...hope ya kids is UGLY!!! Btw...yaz don't love u, doll...GET OVER IT!!!

SOOOO many besties!!

Emanuella (shug), the Dewd, Xavier, Sookie, Twigsz, Bobo, Mini Michael, Brad, Devonia Face, Curly top, All of 6R (except Talia), Damien, Gorilla Fingers, all of my homeroom class, DJ, YAA crew...like EVERYBODY! CAN YOU DIG IT?!!!

The Party Don't Start Till Kiki (a.k.a Fat face a.k.a mini smiley a.k.a lil mama a.k.a yaya a.k.a K.I.A) Walk EEEEEE-IN!!

Awwwww... little kiki face is growin up! teehee...she turns one in TWO WHOLE DAYZZ!!!! I love how she says my name. ( Arrrrrah!) She's a little mini me, heart it SOO much. I KNOW momz-bot got my keyboard today...sooo excited! (love that yamaha) Gonna be Ryan Leslie-in it when i open it. And watch out too...my uncle who is a kick butt rapper is comin out wit his album soon...and i might just be in the studio with him one of these days...SINGIN not rappin here peeps...making my song piece by piece (beat, melody, lyrics)...anyways...luv, peece, big mac grease... HAPPY B~DAY KIKI MAMAXZZZZZ!!!!!

Each Day Gets Better...

Wow. Is it just me, or is my life actually getting a LITTLE better? i mean, Shan'ne and i are barely frenemies anymore, I talked to my godfather, I might go to one of the most socially neccessary parties EVER, and like...love is flippin saucesome! I'm starting to like myself again! Mom-bot and I are still a little shakey, but you know- she can be avoided. My english teacher is loving me, school is the shizznit, and...well. I'm at the top of my game. FINALLY. I just hope my bestie's life can be as happy as mine is right now. BTW, i might get my keyboard...FINALLY. A guess you do have to wait for the good things in life. Well, love, peace, big mac grease. I'm outie, and imma try to blog layta. Smiley out!

XOXO,
Smiley- the one that you know who loves... ;)

Part II...

Places that piece me 2gether....

Shhhhhhhh! Don't tell NOOOOOBODY!

'Going to church don't make you a Christian any more than standing in a garage makes you a car.'

'I like nonsense, it wakes up the brain cells. Fantasy is a necessary ingredient in living, it's a way of looking at life through the wrong end of a telescope and that enables you to laugh at life's realities.'

"A lawful kiss is never worth a stolen one.'

"To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.'

"Life is half spent before one knows what life is.'

"To love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance.'

'Life is a tragedy when seen in close-up, but a comedy in long-shot.'

"Life is a great big canvas, and you should throw all the paint you can on it.'

"No matter how qualified or deserving we are, we will never reach a better life until we can imagine it for ourselves and allow ourselves to have it.'

"The universe is change; our life is what our thoughts make it.'

Just a little something...

Love doesn't make the world go 'round.
Love is what makes the ride worthwhile....

My girl Dawn is BACK baby!

You may know her from Danity Kane.....heard one of her many underground singles....but now shes back witta bang in Dirty Money...Diddy's newest creation...keep it up Puff...look it up! 'Love Come Down' ! Iz tha jam...o yeah...and 'I Can Transform Ya' from ya boy CB...u heard it first....

I...STARTED....MIDDLE SCHOOL

YEP! I am the hottest seventh grader on the block home dog! Style is d swagga...friends- gots to have em...and imma kill it everyday! Old besties, new besties, whateva. This year is mine baby! Look out...Smileys comin atcha!

I support them! Deal with it!!!

The subject no one dares to talk about...

We've heard 'I Kissed A Girl'....we've watched 'Ugly Betty'.... so why are we all still sweating over this, STILL? God, I am SO sick of people rambling on and flippin' on about how wrong it is to BE YOURSELF. There's always something to bicker about huh?...religion, orientation, skin color.... it's like there's something wrong with everybody for being themselves...seriously, people should just mind their own business! Whatever happens behind closed doors if THEIR bizness..if they wanna kiss a girl/boy/whatever, let them do it...you can't help who u love...because love is blind.

Gotta have my convos!

Too obsessed...just gotta have 'em all!

Fashoin #3

Third fashion guru on my list...Katy Perry! Woooooo!

How can u NOT love her? She's crazy, she's awesome, she has great songs, and she's obsessed with FRUIT. My idol..

Listen, I just need to get this off my chest...

Calling me FAKE won't make you REAL,
Calling me DUMB won't make you SMART,
Calling me WEAK won't make you STRONG,
Calling me UGLY won't make you BEAUTIFUL,
Calling me MEAN won't make you NICE.
Calling me GAY won't make you STRAIGHT!
So why bother? Every insult you make is only hurting yourself

For all the haterz.... AAAAANNNDDDDD

When a GIRL is quiet,
Millions of things are running in her mind
When a GIRL is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply
When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of
questions,
She is wondering how long you will be
around
When a GIRL answers "i'm fine" after a
few seconds,
She is not at all fine
When a GIRL stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying
When a GIRL lays on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be hers forever
When a GIRL calls you everyday,
She is seeking for your attention
When a GIRL sms's u everyday,
She wants you to reply at least once
When a GIRL says I love you,
She means it
When a GIRL says that she can't live
without you,
She has made up her mind that you are
her future
When a GIRL says "i miss you",
No one in this world can miss you more
than that.

Fashion Guru #2

My second idol...Hayley Williams (lead singer of Paramore, just so ya know)

I love her laid back style, and her daring new looks...totally saucesome..XD