Murder....suicide....accident?

My pops died a little more than 4 years ago, and till this day, we still don't know how he 'drowned'. But i know that there's been a lot of shady peeps and actions going on, and i need to know what the deal is. Okay, the dude that did my dad's autopsy said that there was no blood or cuts or anything, that it was pure accidental drowning. But in the pictures of his body the day they got it, he had a huge gash over his eyebrow. And the blood looked a deep red still.....they had found the body the day after his 'accident'. Thats only a start. My father had gotten a threat from one of the dudes in the village when he was in Ghana (thats where he was staying at the time). I had recieved a letter, which would end up to be the last one from my father, and it was short and fast written- i could tell. It seemed as if after he wrote my grandmother, telling her about the threat, and then written me, he KNEW something was going to happen, and had to get one last thing off of his chest. Could he have commited suicide having the stress of knowing someone wants to kill him? The crappy story that we got was that a huge wave took him out when the sun was rising, and he was sitting on a rock watching. Crap. Absoulute, utter crap. But anyway, some kid  supposedly went to the village to get help, but no one believed him, and when he came back ,my daddy was gone. That 'kid' had some sort of relationshiup with the crazy blond locked dude that wanted to kill my dad, so what about that? In the pictures it looked like he was hit in the head or worse....shot. My theory is that they did something to his head, and knowing he was dead, threw him in the  water. That's what i will remain to believe until further notice. And i know what yer thinking. Why did he want to kill him? That is a question that will remain unanswered for the rest of my life. But revenge is so satisfying. A few months after, that blonde lock dude was fixing  his car on the side of the road and a huge bus went by and hit him. Funny thing is, no one had ever heard of the bus company, and the people in the bus were never seen or heard of. Either thats a sick coinicendce, or just my father's sweet revenge.... you make the decision.

Besties r besties no matter what....

I don't care what u say. I don't care if she kidnapped yer brother. I don't care if she called u something super uneccessary...Besties are besties no matter what, and u just gotta werk it out hon, cause if you've known them for a while, what they do NOW can't matter. Friendship has to be the sickest bond in the world, cause it takes a LOT to kill it. But, at the same time, if u just LET the bond be broken, how strong is it EXACTLY? Common people, this is a recession...if anything at all, NOW should be the time that everyine sticks together, because who knows WHAT the future will look like! You really need sumone to stick by u and listen, laugh, and learn with you and to you. Take it from me, friends are something you just can't replace with more money....

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Depression.

Have you ever had a sad, lonely, help me I'm going insane feeling? Once or twice? How about everyday? And most people think it's just an excuse so that they'll feel sorry for you, but its much deeper than that. You dont wanna get out of bed, either you eat non stop, or not eat at all. No matter what, you need someone to listen, and that's all that matters. U need to save yer self. Do it soon.

AHHHHHHHHH!!! JUNIOR HIGH!!!!!!

WHAT?! It feels like i just came into 6th grade! Where did the time go? What happened to the fights, the drama, the laughs, the boo-hooing? My besties, enemies, haters, all of them? And...oh no...not my BITERS (well, i kinda will have them anywhere i go, but whateves) But no more elementary....but the change will also means spreading my newly spread wings and fly up out this 'yatch! Haha, and i don't mind meeting new um....ha PEOPLE....(wink, wink) Hem, anyway I guess i can handle it. I mean, I'm Flaxxiebonessxz! If i can handle having the name FLAXXIEBONESSXZ, then i can handle ANYthing......

Too Young to love?

Tell  me this. When yer born, u love yer mommy. At 4 u love yer imaginary friends. At nine, it was Hannah Montana, and so on, so forth. So, when u hit 12, 13 ,etc can u love who u have eyes for? People say you're to young too love somebody fully. But is there a way you can love somebody half way, or a little bit? see, for me, its either ALL or NOTHING. If u can love a celebrity, yourself, and things yer PARENTS might aprove, does age matter when u can feel it in yer heart, yer head? If that person treats you right and cares, and makes you feel specail and respect you, who cares? Do what you think is right and go for it...you'll never know unless you try..

LEAVE IT BE!

Why do people have to bother me with their bullcrap? If i say one thing, just leave it at that, and don't stress it cause your just pissing me off even more. I have the shortest temper possible, and the smallest amount of patience. Doing stuff like that doesn't help at all. Sigh, stress is overwhelming right now. Please don't add on. :(

Second Chances

I don't get it at all. I don't complain about people on the regular. I keep my opinion to myself most of the time. But people love to complain, and bad mouth, and boo-hoo abouit how mean and bad and rude and etc i am. So do people deserve a second chance? Who knows. But the people who love to hate on me-they need SOMEthing to do. If it makes them feel better, whatever. Do what you gotta do. Just prepare for the backlash. :P